New Year's is here. Time to shake off 2014, and look forward towards the opportunity for a clean slate, a whole new start..how lucky are we to have that opportunity every year. Life begins and ends with the decisions we make day in and day out. We are a sum of our decisions. With that in mind, I am looking forward to day 1 on Thursday :).
First, to put to bed the good and the bad of 2014. Oh what a year. I can honestly say this has been one of the biggest ebbs and flow years of my life. At the same time, I can say it's been the most rewarding too, in the sense that for the first time I think ever I feel like I am taking life one day at a time. Thanks to Makena, I think I have finally learned that there is only certain things I can control. Being a Mom has really opened my eyes to that. Thank God, seriously, thank God. I have been a control freak for my entire life, filled with anxiety and doubts and fear of failure among many other fears. It can be debilitating, although I for the most part have not let it completely stop me from things. Anxiety can and will take away a lot of joy in life. So, thank you to Makena for making me a Mom, and helping me realize life is one day a time, one decision at a time, and to focus on what I can control.
Oh 2014....From Makena having some troubling eye issues (myelinated nerve fibers in her right eye and extreme nearsightedness), (I will save a later blog post to explain in more detail), that was a scary diagnosis, as well as extremely challenging for Makena and for me. It requires her to wear a contact in her right eye, putting that in each week is not easy to say it lightly. As well as daily eye patching of her strong eye to strengthen the right eye which will really never see very well no matter what we do... it's a test of wills and patience on both our parts.... To some of my own personal ups and downs, with work, and the ever present fertility issues we struggle with to have baby number 2...it's been a trying year. But, with all lows in life there are also many highs! Such as watching Makena grow into a smart, spunky, physically and mentally strong toddler, oh how I could not love this girl more...And of course, starting Makena Lane :) My love child little business that wants to grow and grow.
So in 2015 some goals I have I am going to share in hopes that it keeps them at the forefront of my mind...and they are things like:
-have baby #2 so Makena will have a beloved sibling, I could not imagine my life without my sisters and I don't want her to have to imagine that either
-grow Makena Lane....in sales and in moving towards my own line of clothing..to the point where I will not need to have another job, so I can focus full efforts on this passion of mine :)
-get Makena into gymnastics, she needs the outlet so badly!
-keep Makena happy and healthy and help her to improve her right eye
-keep working towards personal balance, physically, emotionally, and financially.
-give more focus to the relationships that mean so much to me, I feel like I've lost touch with many being a new mom etc...it's a tough balance that no one can really prepare you for until you're in the heart of it.
-continue learning to just "be"
Wishing all of my friends and friends of Makena Lane and my family the healthiest, happiest, safest and most fulfilling year ahead!
Onward and upwards my friends!