Today is my Mom's birthday, she would have been 67 yrs old today. I can't stop thinking about her and imagining the way life would be with her here with me and my daughter Makena. Especially since starting Makena Lane...she was the inspiration after all for the store, and many of the styles. Oh how I miss her. She was the queen of coordination, things just had to match just so. I remember being little and picking out the material for a dress she was going to make me and then as I got older I would come up with a style that I wanted, and she would go as far as making her own pattern for something we couldn't find an exact pattern for. She was amazing.I learned about self expression through my styles and outfits, which lead me to a lot more confidence and grace.
I visited my Moms grave today, and while I was there I had a flash back to visiting my grandparents there with her, and how empty and sad I used to feel. Today, as an adult, I realize how grateful I am for the growth and the things I've been through in life that have gotten me this far...those things such as huge loss that have prepared me to deal with the most stressful of situations, and not fold under the pressure of it all.... As a younger teen or young adult, I don't think you know how to really process heartache and sadness. Though still sad and missing them everyday, I realize too the lessons I learned from them all, my Mom, my grandparents etc...and I'm so so grateful to have realized, and not too late mind you, that life is short, full of possibilities, and to always find the things that make you happy..when you do that, then life is just so much sweeter. My Mom was so talented and had so many dreams, but really never found the self confidence to go after those dreams, really heart breaking...and SUCH a good lesson to learn from her...
What I know is I LOVE being a Mom, especially Makenas mommy. I LOVE fashion and clothes and the self expression you can have through them. I LOVE sweet little girls and their dreaminess about life and their love of dress up and make believe. Makena is so sweet and proud when she comes out in a cute and coordinated girly outfit, she lifts her head high and smiles at the oohs and ahhs she receives wherever we go. I LOVE to help people to put together outfits and wardrobes..I love when I find the thing that someone has searched for and I love how happy it makes someone. I LOVE the freedom in creating and designing this little boutique, it brings out so much creativity in me, a part of me that was asleep for a long time. I LOVE business and the endless possibilities it brings..so many cool ideas and things coming ahead ;). I LOVE the connections Makena Lane has already brought into my life with both old friends that I have reconnected with and with new friends that I had no idea I needed in my life but am so happy to have met them :). There's really nothing more important to me in life than connection, connection with friends, with family, with clients, and with strangers soon to be friends. It's my life force, I'm a true extrovert, getting energy off of spending time with others that I love.
I guess with all this rambling, my point is, if I can give anyone any advice it's this: life is so very short....find what you're passionate about...take a first step, no matter what that step is, and follow your heart. Even if it doesn't work out exactly as you expected, you will find so much confidence and love for yourself for taking that step! You just have to take a right or left and get moving...that's the hardest part, the first step. I truly believe we are all destined for certain things in life, but you have to find yourself and believe in yourself enough to explore those things... and go for it!
So tell me friends, what are some things you want to make happen in your life, things that you're passionate about? Maybe we can start an open conversation, once you put something out there to others, it makes you accountable to others, which usually forces me to start doing something or working toward something anyway?! :)